I looked into the eyes of my children
And told them I will be leaving the house,
Though not now, not yet.
I looked through the bleary haze of their tears
And told them I no longer loved their mother
As a wife,
Though dearly as a friend.
I laid my deceptions, my lies, my barbs
Out for them to judge,
Openly,
Honestly,
Simply,
Completely.
I told them [...]
For seven years, I have worn this gold band. It was inexpensive, relatively thin, unadorned. It is the only ring that has ever fit me perfectly, no matter the weather, no matter my mood. I have usually enjoyed the wearing of the ring, proud to provide, to protect, to love.
The woman who slid this ring [...]
I’ve told her.
She didn’t cry, yet.
She didn’t yell, yet.
She didn’t hurt herself, yet.
She has chosen strength.
Her strength is why I’ve loved her.
It’s over.
I am mad about you.
I have to tell her.
I don’t know what will happen.
I’m afraid for the safety of this person I respect and love, as a friend; but her choice is her choice, her life is her life. It will crush her more if in years to come I tell her the truth. [...]
i will always marvel at the depth of
your gentle spirit
i will always marvel at the depth of
my inability to commit fully to it over
these days
i will always marvel at you
in my heart
in my thoughts
When a word can kill,
How can you expect me to speak a
Truth inevitably comprised of
Razors and kisses?
Would you have me stay knowing I do so
Only to keep my hands clean of your blood?
Is this living?
Thoughts of her
Freeze my mind
In an amazed stasis.
I am crippled by her presence,
Or its memory,
Infirmed and unable to motivate the
Mechanics of my life.
What a sweet dysfunction.
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